ouch
the pain
kendo pain
shoulders
claves
left hip and thigh
no pain no gain
i gained pain

i take comfort in the knowledge that i don't need to know what will happen in the novel
it is challenging to maintain a character's mood when mine has changed
not that my character will be be depressed the entire story
but it's not time for him to be happy yet
that redemption comes later
i think

my resolution for the new year is to cultivate and sustain friendships
jen is my best friend
i have no close friends
maybe a couple good friends
a few more on the aquaintance/friend border
i have been hurt by friends before
i have hurt friends before
i have forgiven but still fear the pain of rejection

no pain no gain