Monday, December 31, 2007

No novel writing today
Even more importantly I have my story now
Tomorrow is a new year
Tomorrow I begin a new story
Tomorrow I write!
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Sunday, December 30, 2007

the pain
kendo pain
left hip and thigh
no pain no gain
i gained pain

i take comfort in the knowledge that i don't need to know what will happen in the novel
it is challenging to maintain a character's mood when mine has changed
not that my character will be be depressed the entire story
but it's not time for him to be happy yet
that redemption comes later
i think

my resolution for the new year is to cultivate and sustain friendships
jen is my best friend
i have no close friends
maybe a couple good friends
a few more on the aquaintance/friend border
i have been hurt by friends before
i have hurt friends before
i have forgiven but still fear the pain of rejection

no pain no gain

Saturday, December 29, 2007

it's three oh four pm and two remarkable things have happened so far

i took the first step of long held dream
my first kendo class
my first kendo experience
i anticipated being a witness to this form of focus meets strength meets grace meets speed
i was invited to participate
they were patient and giving and genuinely pleased i was there
they know what lies ahead
i will grow strong both in and out
i will bruise
i will be sore... probably before the end of the day
my body is not ready for this new discipline
both mind and body need new discipline and i welcome it
new friends laughing
we experience character development
our final excercise is barefoot in the snow
an added bonus for being present today in the outdoor dojo

i go to scooter's to write
a group gathers and builds close to me space
an amateur investment group?
been there done that
an elderly gentleman arrives and assumes i am one of them and introduces himself
i shake his hand and tell him my name
the others correct him
i tell him it still a pleasure to meet him
we laugh and he knocks over someone's coffee

a good day to laugh so far.

Friday, December 28, 2007

Email post

Blogging on the go
Always connected
Friend or foe
Solitude ny friend no longer
I will seek you out and beg forgiveness
Please welcome me
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another two years have rolled by
the daunting task of writing everyday is upon me again
i started the novel
don't know where it's going yet but pen has been put to paper
this doesn't count as work on the novel
i'm sharpening the saw

yesterday i saw INTO THE WILD
it opened my heart just a little bit wider
it confirmed what i already knew
life is nothing without people to share it with
happiness is real only when shared was his deathbed realization
somedays i still want to run off alone
somedays my life is a perfectly tailored suit
somedays i don't know whose clothes i'm wearing
somedays it's my old tattered college sweatshirt on which every stain has a name
somedays it's a two sizes too small button-down
today i'm standing naked wondering what to wear

benazir bhutto was killed yesterday
so was someone only few people knew
the senselessness of it depresses me
yet this is life and there is no death